||[Apr. 21st, 2005|08:23 am]
No One Really
|||||Abandoned - Kamelot, The Black Halo||]|
Every day we make decisions. Years later, we may come to regret those decisions. We may think "Man, why did I do that? If I had done that, this wouldn't have happened, and this wouldn't have happened, and the world would be happier for me."
Of course, what I often fail to realize is that anything that's happy that's going on now is also dependent on those decisions.
I was recently thinking that I wish I had tried to stick it out a little longer at TZ. I really enjoyed living there... and living in California was good for me. And regardless of anything here, I want to go back someday.
But if I hadn't moved back to Madison, I wouldn't be going to school. And I wouldn't have met Toz-chan (because, for example, I would never have met John and Kim, so I never would have changed EQ servers). Or Naiadea. Or several other people on this list.
Do I regret things that I've done? Some. But everything I've done leads to today.
It's probably better to focus on doing things today that I don't regret, rather than focus on the regrets of yesterday.
Now let's see if I actually have enough willpower to pull that off.
(as an aside, I'm happy that they have both pensive AND thoughful as moods!)