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[Apr. 21st, 2005|08:23 am]
No One Really
[Current Mood |pensivepensive]
[Current Music |Abandoned - Kamelot, The Black Halo]


Every day we make decisions. Years later, we may come to regret those decisions. We may think "Man, why did I do that? If I had done that, this wouldn't have happened, and this wouldn't have happened, and the world would be happier for me."

Of course, what I often fail to realize is that anything that's happy that's going on now is also dependent on those decisions.

I was recently thinking that I wish I had tried to stick it out a little longer at TZ. I really enjoyed living there... and living in California was good for me. And regardless of anything here, I want to go back someday.

But if I hadn't moved back to Madison, I wouldn't be going to school. And I wouldn't have met Toz-chan (because, for example, I would never have met John and Kim, so I never would have changed EQ servers). Or Naiadea. Or several other people on this list.

Do I regret things that I've done? Some. But everything I've done leads to today.

It's probably better to focus on doing things today that I don't regret, rather than focus on the regrets of yesterday.

Now let's see if I actually have enough willpower to pull that off.

(as an aside, I'm happy that they have both pensive AND thoughful as moods!)

[User Picture]From: withouttalent
2005-04-21 06:06 pm (UTC)
Eric, at times I feel like "God he's right here in town with me, and yet more distant than when he was away"... and then I realize, holy shit... that means his plan is working. It means he's focusing on what really is important.

And it's then that I'm really proud of you. I know, it seems silly for me to speaking about you in maternal terms. You've always been the source of wisdom to the rest of us who find you important in life. But I am proud, because you live up to everything I've built you up to in my mind, and to others. You're accomplishing so much, at a significant cost. And it makes me feel wonderful.

You've got a cheering section here, don't forget about it...
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